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January 31, 2015 Amazing. The drama gets even more extreme and ridiculous. Even I, cynic of cynics, would never have anticipated the sheer idiocy and ridiculousness of people. Why do I keep going back to this insane, distressing, stressing, pointless, unappreciative place? Posted at 7:18 AM
January 30, 2015 This is just going to get worse and worse ... Posted at 6:38 AM
January 29, 2015 Tired and busy. These things together have pluses and minuses ... and I might possibly survive them ... (darn!) Posted at 6:26 AM
January 28, 2015 Already sick of the tax season ... Posted at 7:33 AM
January 27, 2015 ... and still more drama from the divas. Who would have believed there was any further things could go? Posted at 7:52 AM
January 26, 2015 Who would have thought there was a weekend in there? The past couple days passed with all of the work, stress, and pain of any weekday. Great. Posted at 7:54 AM
January 25, 2015 Another stressful day at work. The new theme seems to be: "What new stress can we add each day, and how can we make this place more fucked up, less hospitable (to employees and clients alike), and equally as bad as it was in years past despite the efforts of the past year to address, correct, and avoid those problems (efforts which have now been subverted or ignored across the board). All that's missing is the iron maiden and the rack. Posted at 7:56 AM
January 24, 2015 Even with appointments with clients today dragged on forever. I never thought the afternoon would pass. Sadly, this is only the beginning. Posted at 6:43 AM
January 23, 2015 I survived yesterday somehow. Now I have to face another shit-full extravaganza. Joy. Posted at 6:58 AM
January 22, 2015 Who'd have thought the stress and anxiety from being poor and homeless would become preferable to the stress and anxiety from any place of work, no matter how bad? I know I've had decent employers for the most part in my life compared to some, but just as it drops to new lows that I could never have anticipated or believed we keep diving further into the darkest depths - of constant lies and deception, insensitivity, idiocy, unscrupulousness, outright criminality, and gross displays of inhumanity, selfishness, and ... hell, words will never be able to encompass it all ... Posted at 6:46 AM
January 21, 2015 Meanwhile, as the migraine not only reaches day five but grows to previously- unheard-of proportions, i wish more than ever that I'd be allowed to die. Now. Posted at 7:53 AM January 20, 2015 I want out. Posted at 7:56 AM
January 19, 2015 More crap surely awaits. Why do I head back into it? Posted at 7:42 AM
January 18, 2015 Missed the anniversary of this site by a few days during the shit week I've had. Now entering year fifteen. Posted at 7:27 AM
January 17, 2015 So tired ... tired of everything and tired to the bone - exhausted and exsanguine; over-worn and overwrought. Make it end. Posted at 6:46 AM
January 16, 2015 This shit, the horror of man's inhumanity to his fellow man, is the largest part of why I simply want out. The quiet stillness of death is vastly preferable to the tortured suffering of every day of life. Why should I - or anyone - be expected to endure this, and not just once or twice but daily, hourly, constantly, repeatedly, over and over and over again without end. If there is a hell it would surely be peaceful by comparison. Posted at 7:01 AM January 15, 2015 ... and now, solid work twelve hours a day every day for three months ... Wheeeeee!!!! Posted at 7:38 AM
January 14, 2015 Oh the places you'll go! The people you'll hate! Posted at 7:51 AM
January 13, 2015 I hate my life. Posted at 7:12 AM
January 12, 2015 Still no cleaning of the apartment, even though I got a lot of other things accomplished that needed to be finished, and it now looks like the cleaning won't happen at all. Posted at 6:21 AM
January 11, 2015 Still no cleaning done, so hopefully today will see it done. I have laundry processing, though, and I got a number of small tasks done yesterday that I wanted finished this weekend, so it's not a total wash. Still, it would be nice to have a cleaning service so I wouldn't have to do this. Posted at 6:39 AM
January 10, 2015 This is my last chance to clean the apartment. I certainly don't want to - I had planned to do a few final SMALL tasks and just relax during this last chance before the long days without break that come from the tax season. But if I don't clean the apartment now it will be disgusting and unhealthy by April 15th. Wah. Posted at 7:14 AM
January 9, 2015 More work today and then more work this weekend as this will be my last weekend off until late April, and there is much to do in the little free time that remains ... Posted at 6:52 AM
January 8, 2015 Progress is a subjective thing ... Posted at 7:46 AM
January 7, 2015 The new employees at the office are lucky I'm not their supervisor or manager because I'm fed up. I'm actually getting upset with Steve that he isn't doing anything despite these people repeatedly being late, taking outrageously long breaks, wasting tons of time on Facebook and YouTube, and not doing the work they are asked - and needed! - to do. I'm about ready to explode, and something had better happen soon. I'm sick of busting my ass while the new people are getting a free paycheck. Posted at 7:22 AM
January 6, 2015 Can we match yesterday's disjointed crazy house at work today? Even if we do it's far less likely to be inside a freezer. Ah, the memories ... if only I could forget. Posted at 7:54 AM
January 5, 2015 Apparently there are people who don't believe that victims of abuse would be better and stronger if they just 'got over it," despite the vast number of people I've encountered that seem to completely blow off any kind of child abuse, bullying, or full-out PTSD as if they were far overblown and just a sign of weakness. Victims of such things are anything but weak, and the people who don't get that are simply assholes who have no fucking idea how nice, simple, safe, and pleasant their lives are and have been. For anyone to decry the potentially-life-long suffering of victims of any kind of abuse shows either someone who has never seen such things themselves or a complete sociopath who dreams of inflicting such things on others (and may even do so in their day-to-day lives). Those kinds of people - the deniers, the sociopath - are anything but strong. They are weak-minded, weak willed, and weak of morals, inflicting pain on others and acting careless of any consequences. They are monsters.
Posted at 6:44 AM
January 4, 2015 I feel achy-breaky, but not at all like what the song tells about - just sore and tired and down. Posted at 6:58 AM
January 3, 2015
Rest in peace, Mario Cuomo. You will be sorely missed by an America that needed you now more than ever. Posted at 7:16 AM January 2, 2015 Back to work again. This repetitive pointlessness i crushing. Why can't I just die now and be done with it all? Posted at 6:32 AM
January 1, 2015 ... and another year passes with me still alive for no good reason at all ... When will it end? Posted at 7:34 AM
Journal, by Paul Cales, © January 2015
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